Had been doing really well. Fell exceptionally hard on Saturday. It was quite a fall to recover from. Not sure why I did it. Never want to do it again. Life is much better without the substances I have relied on for so long. Wonder how long it will be until I no longer stumble or fall. God is on my side and I feel his presence even stronger everyday.
I want to experience the world through these new eyes for a while and see what I have been missing out on. I also want to see what is in store for me. Things are changing so quickly in my world. It seems like a slow progression and then boom! Everything is different. Some changes I am REALLY struggling with, others are coming a little easier.
Dear Lord, please continue to watch over me with your gentle kindness and love. I thank you for the positive influences you have placed in my life. Help me to not overuse or abuse the goodness there. I have a tendency to wear people out and I only want to embrace the help, the goodness, the friendship of those around me. I'm afraid of going it alone. I know darkness and ironically have had a fear of the dark since early childhood. It is interesting the new fears that pop up everyday, I accept that these may be obstacles/challenges that will help me learn and grow in my faith in you. Thank you for sending me angels that I recognize and accept direction from, please bless them in return.
